Perspective

I am amazed by the power of perspective. In the last week and a half my perspective has been drastically altered and as a result my experience has been altered. I feel like me again. It is as though I was dead my first 3 and a half months here, and now I have experienced a re-birth. I am alive again. I am back. And for the first time since I left where I was, I feel like I am still the same me I was when I was where I was.

I wonder what it must have been like for the blind man to have his eyes opened, and the first image to ever behold was that of the face of Jesus. I wonder if it may have felt somewhat like what I am now experiencing. I am very much still in process, but my eyes have been opened - and I see Jesus standing so very close to me... I see Him going before me.

Don't get me wrong, I still deeply miss where I was and those I left - but as I am beginning to see more clearly where I am headed, I am alive again.

At the core of it all, at the heart of this turning point, I can see myself in church based ministry again. I believe I will once again have the privilege of serving God full time in ministry. I can even see what that would like. That is not something I could see when I was there... What would I be next? If what I was doing was coming to a close where could I see myself positioned next on a church team - I couldn't. I had no idea. But now I can. And I am even beginning to see how where I am could make sense. I am beginning to understand why God has me here.

And more important than anything else, I feel Him near...